Chris Lehmann asks how teachers can make a little life for themselves. It's a question I haven't adequately answered for myself, either. I can't remember the last time I finished a book (though that's more due to reading way too many magazines than anything else), I rarely get the chance to blog as often as I like (it being spring break makes this week the exception), and so on.

I can force myself to chill out at home, instead of spending time on school stuff, but then I get behind on school stuff, or I do a sloppier job with it. Maybe this wouldn't be so bad if I actually liked the work, if I was truly enjoying my teaching. I can't honestly say that I am, though, so the time spent feels like a waste. On the other hand, time spent not doing teacher stuff makes me feel guilty for slacking off.

One of the problems is that I can't know whether my current situation, with a tough, new school, grad school on top of that, and this being my first year, is what's making things so hard, or whether it's teaching in general that I don't really like. I don't want to spend five years to find out, either.

And of course, this post ends on a far different note than it started.